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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Old_Windmill,_Brisbane
It was built in the 1820s
So, I was given some advice for situations like this that changed my life.
The first thing that comes to mind in these moments isn’t what matters. It’s what a life time of indoctrinated racism/classism/sexism etc looks like. The thing that comes to mind here isn’t necessarily what you think, it’s what you’ve been taught to think,
What matters is what you do next, after the thought has popped in to your mind.
I was raised in a very racist environment, and I struggled with feeling guilt every time some racist thought I’d been trained with popped in to my head, because that’s not the person I want to be. Reframing it like this allowed me to stop getting hung up on the guilt part, and work on the part that actually means something
While I personally think they aren’t judging me, I sometimes feel like I’m doing exactly what you have described when I compliment people. I try to compliment people whenever I can in order to make them feel good and while it works, I feel like I’m above them for doing so.
Yep, I struggle giving compliments for the same reason! So I give compliments in the way I can receive them, which is to compliment the things that people have said/done or are planning etc, rather than complimenting the person.
I’m an extrovert, and I was a gifted kid. I haven’t been gaslit about my abilities, and I was supported and encouraged as a kid. I know what I’m capable of, and I know my limitations. I love myself, and wouldn’t choose to be anyone else.
Yet I hate compliments.
To me, compliments feel like someone passing judgement on me, like they’re putting themselves in a place above me so they can judge me. I’m aware that’s not what they’re doing, but that’s always been what it feels like to me.
However, you can compliment things I’ve done, and I’m here for it
I have no idea what it means :)
Lemmy started for me in December 2022. By that point, I’d been on the fediverse for 6 months or so. The Twitter implosion had just happened the month before, and I finally realised how sick of centralised social media I was. Reddit was the only one I was using, though I barely touched it because of the moderation, and so I went looking for alternatives.
I found lemmy.ml, and saw the potential of the concept. A month later, in January 2023 my partner and I were running an instance (we already ran a regular fediverse instance). The lemmy instance was basically just a single person instance. Sign ups were open, but lemmy was quiet back then, so the few people that joined left again. My partner barely used lemmy, so it was basically a single person instance.
And then the reddit implosion happened, and suddenly we found ourselves running a fully fledged lemmy instance, with more users than our “main” instance. And that was really the moment that I got more serious about lemmy too. The increase in community size and engagement transformed the experience.
I’ve never been back to reddit since I left in December 2022, but I didn’t delete my account until 2023 during the reddit exodus.
“The first thing that jumps to your mind isn’t always what you truly think. Sometimes, it’s just what you’ve been trained to think. What matters, is what you do next”
I grew up in a really racist, queerphobic environment, and that comment really helped me by letting me give myself space to undo the bigoted indoctrination I had been taught, without getting trapped in guilt and self disgust whenever one of the racist or bigoted things I was raised with jumped in to my mind.
It let me recognise the bigoted thought as something I was trained to think, rather than being what I actually believe, and by recognising it, I could disempower the thought, and start to unlearn it
Metazooa. It’s not quite a wordle clone, but it’s clearly inspired by the genre
Basically, you have to guess an animal each day, and every time you guess, the game tells you the last branch your guess and the animal have in common on the taxanomic tree
Bought a brand new machine. Top of the line. Installed windows on it. Thought “You know what, fuck this, time to give Linux another go”. Discovered that nvida and Wayland don’t get on…